Gracie

Knowing I’ll never fully know anyone is what makes it feel like such a gift when someone lets me in, even a little. When they tell me the thing they didn’t post about. When they trust me with the part that doesn’t make a good story. When they let me see the mess behind the metaphor.

I don’t really know what their lives feel like from the inside. I don’t know what they dream about when they’re quiet. What memories still hum at the edges of their minds. What private joys they carry in their pockets like lucky charms.

There’s a certain quiet violence in realizing you’ll never know most people deeply. You’ll never see the little rituals that hold them together. Never hear the thing they say out loud when they’re alone in the car. Never know how they feel about rain on Tuesdays, or whether they sleep with one leg out of the blanket, or who first taught them how to... See more

I am most happy when I feel myself exist beyond any fixed identity or role. I am most happy when I feel lost in the things I create and love. I’m no longer me, but part of something great and unstoppable. The power of that loss is always striking when it occurs, and it happens again and again when I stop thinking about myself so much, and just... See more

there was a such a high level of

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connoisseurship

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of everything that that that that people

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like this were interested in

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you know of everything that made the

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culture better you ca

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you know a very discerning audience a

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very you know

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an audience with a high level of

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connoisseurship um

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is as important to the culture as

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a... See more

The effect of Aids

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that aids had

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on the culture in the sense i mean

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people don't talk about anymore but when

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people did talk about

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it uh they talked about like what

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artists were lost

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but they never talked about this

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audience that was lost you know when

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people talk about like

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why would you know why was new york city

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Write a thank-you letter to the version of you who started this year, what would you tell them about how far you’ve come?

Who do you feel most yourself around, and what is it about them that makes you feel safe to be you?

Who has shown you love recently in ways you didn’t expect, and how did it make you feel in that moment?