“Gnosis should be an experience of your own life, a plant grown on your own tree. Foreign gods are a sweet poison, but vegetable gods you have raised in your own garden are nourishing. They are perhaps less beautiful but they have stronger medicine.”
Carl Jung
you don’t need to understand yourself fully. you can’t. you are an organism of complexity beyond your own comprehension
all you need to do is notice what you notice, meet it with love & warmth, and allow yourself space to bloom