mid2l820s

read a substack called "i don't dream of marriage or motherhood" and it highlighted how you do not need to have a physical child to be a mother. you can nurture those around you and pour into communal spaces. children finding community within you, even if they're not yours. i think that's beautiful as someone who is firm on not having children in t... See more

I remember trying to describe to someone what my grief felt like/what it did to me. you can’t even describe it. even when you try, those who can’t empathize will simplify your experience down to mere sadness. grief is so beyond being sad. they are not the same.

being in my 20’s just feels like reliving every feeling i felt at 17 but processing it with more awareness

your 20s are for gaming too much, experiencing serious touch starvation, and spending bill money on door dash

sometimes feeling sorry for yourself is the necessary medicine. no one knows your grief exactly like you do… the weight of your suffering is heavy and it is real, and you’re allowed to scream and cry out loud from the pain and fatigue while everyone crawls up that same mountain.

I can’t explain in but great things happen in my life immediately I leave something, especially someone that’s not meant for me, it’s almost like a reward from my higher self for doing the very difficult work of shedding. That’s why I’m never letting stuff linger, I shed swiftly and necessarily, the pain abounds but the reward is far greater.

And just keep healing and releasing. Take care of yourself and listen to what your intuition says. It might be guiding you to do something important. Breathe out all these heavy things and be in the moment. You’re safe and exactly where you should be. Your past doesn’t define you