original thoughts
discrete representations & AI
imagine a sentient algorithm, trained off reality only captured by digital cameras and texts. discrete representations through pixels. they do not 'see' the same way we do. it does not 'listen' the way we hear. instead, just a vector of a position of pixel and its represented color. just a representation of reality.
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My Mother
Kindness, desire for knowledge, unconditional love. Despite the generations of mothers in my family who did not treat their daughters kindly, her resilience to break the cycle by showering me with love. I may have been born evil, yet I owe it to her love and care for me that I have grown up into a half-decent hu
folklore of our times gives me that “chrono-sonder” (although a term coined by some random tiktoker, no other word encapsulates this feeling)
we are not told what the ex-gf truly thinks, there is no inner monologue. i don’t completely understand where she’s coming from, but i think i get the feeling. the way she’s a product of her time. and all of h
... See morenevertheless, i am irresistibly drawn to his novels. i love the way he describes loneliness, i actually lol when a character says something witty, i like how his characters are kind of fleshed out but we only see them in an observatory way, i love how atmospheric instead of explicit his world building of his more magical elements feel, and i love h
... See moremurakami has a pattern of misogynistic portrayals. for example, in wind up bird chronicles, there are unnecessarily sexual portrayals of may kasahara, and sexual assault is used somewhat as a plot device. in men without women (specifically samsa in love and scheherazade), female characters exist solely to be some passive admiration and projection o
... See morereligion is a translation of compassion and inner whatever the fuck that is not beneficial in a hamurabi’s code type of world
something about kids-tech makes me feel uncomfortable. i feel like kids don’t have enough cognition to recognize the distinction between the virtual and the physical. so the experiment is so effective because there is an emotional connection and some intimacy between the child and the object. however, wouldn’t it be traumatizing if they find out th
... See moreThrough the consumption of luxury goods, advertisements promise the veneer of wealth… but what good does it serve me? what they symbolize is actually the opposite of what i am with them. it is only the symbol that communicates i am wealthy, the truth is that i am $5000 short on money.
I think what differentiates humans from animals is the capability of recognizing that I am a small part of something greater: whether a soceity, community, or even the whole universe. To recognize I am merely a millionth of that unseeable whole. But perhaps to live is to contribute to that greater whole. Scientists may do science for selfish reason
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