gratitude

we don’t talk enough about the grief of wanting. about how longing can feel disloyal. especially when you have a life that looks full. a partner, a child, a city that people romanticize. a fridge that holds your favorite yogurt, a bookshelf you once dreamed of, a set of daily rhythms you fought hard to build. there are mornings when i look around a... See more

i’ve been thinking about the strange emotional choreography involved in being both grateful and dissatisfied at the same time.