Eudaimonia & Wellbeing

The project I'm doing is basically turning myself into a certain type of person who is able to have these thoughts. The essays are kind of just exhaust from the project. The work is growing emotionally and intellectually in such a way, and just going out into the world, talking to people, reading, looking at things, and becoming the kind of mind

growth feels uncomfortable because you've outgrown the old ways of being within yourself, and the new ways of being still aren't familiar so they feel unsafe. at the same time, there are parts of your old self that you miss, but also fear of a new chapter because you've never done it before.

i know that once this period of distress is over, good

Zielschmerz n. the exhilarating dread of finally pursuing a lifelong dream, which requires you to put your true abilities out there to be tested on the open savannah, no longer protected inside the terrarium of hopes and delusions that you created in kindergarten and kept sealed as long as you could, only to break in case of emergency.