The ability to see beyond —beyond good and evil sure, but also beyond comfort, success, achievement, domesticity, beyond even our selves—and look toward nuance (towards the erotic!) which means engulfment, annihilation, death.
The tusk pierces Adonis.
Cupid’s dart takes aim at St. Sebastian.
The nail is driven into Christ’s flesh spilling out his... See more
After Adonis’s death, the boar is said to have protested that it had not meant to injure the beautiful youth with its erotikous odantas , or “eroticized teeth.”
Adonis was young and beautiful. Ideal in his form. So ideal that even Aphrodite herself, the goddess of love and beauty couldn’t resist him. Her desire so intense, in fact, that she twisted the fates to have her love.
I don’t think I’ve ever known how to love in halves. When I love, it consumes me. It settles into my bones, reshapes my days, turns absence into something I can physically feel .
Your contradictions are an asset. You’re a lover of classical English architecture and you’re also a dirty little punk—expressing both at the same time is more interesting than sharing just cute pictures of English gardens or just wild trashy stuff.
It is what is odd about you that is interesting. If you work hard, you will be able to write like everyone else in your genre, but the result will never be rich as the texture of your own personality. So, don’t think too much about how you are supposed to write, how others do it, or what the conventions demand. Just try to amuse yourself.