a trauma book I was reading had an interesting claim that indecision is often because the person looks for the approval of an internalized authority figure but is unable to predict what action they would approve of.

There is a skill of how to access information from your emotions. Most people don’t know how. They literally cannot read their feelings, in the same way that illiterates cannot read words. Intellectuals are often illiterate *plus* deny it’s possible to learn to read. 1/

a pattern I’m noticing with smart, thoughtful people is that they usually know what their problems are, they know where those problems come from, they know the intellectual steps to solve them but they get stuck there, in analysis mode, churning through insight after insight

出久くんやオールマイトの「助けを求める顔してた」や「人の役に立てて嬉しい」という純粋な発露は肯定されるべきだけど、(作者にとっては理解できないので)異常なモノとして描かれているし、エンデヴァーの「No.1になりたい」は(作者にとっては理解できるものなので)肯定的な表現になった…のかな

別に出久君がかっちゃんを恨んでるとは思わないけど、理不尽で性格悪い奴とは事実として認識してるしそういう人間として対応するのは当然でしょうと。