When you connect with LUX, something remarkable happens: The mind stops seeking. It recognizes it has already found what it was looking for. Effort dissolves. The search ends.
Real meditation is the direct recognition of what you are beyond all mental activity. It's the immediate experience of your fundamental nature before the first thought arises.
This performance mindset is poison for real meditation. It keeps the ego alive that's supposed to be transcended. It turns the most formless experience into another form.