This Will All Be Over Soon: A Memoir

feels like this is a strange time. Important to save. Isn’t this a way to capture a moment? For what, I don’t quite know.

I’m not where I want, but I’m where I am, and I am choosing to try my best to not fight any of it and instead discover my new rules.

I want to say goodbye in a panic because it feels like people don’t get goodbyes when thousands die at once and people are unique and strange and some of them are the most bizarre members of your workplace. They deserve a goodbye we are not numbers we are not numbers we are not numbers.

we can’t truly express our sympathies to each other because we are still grieving ourselves.

I keep approaching “okay.” But I’m never fully there. I’ll only ever be “okay adjacent.” I’m everything “adjacent” because words are hard to find these days. I’m living “life adjacent” right now.

“To Live a Life” by First Aid Kit.

I say all of this only as a friend admiring the strength and superhero powers of my friend. It is not my story to tell.

1. Nothing too heavy. 2) Notice the sunshine. 3) It’s okay to cry as much as it’s okay to laugh. 4) Say yes to these Instagram Live shows more often. 5) Do your makeup if you want. Feel pretty. 6) Don’t feel bad for wanting to feel pretty. 7) Trust yourself just enough to know that although you think the idea that everything happens for a reason is bu

I’m laughing so hard the whole time. I stop for a second every now and then, wondering if there’s something I should be worried about. But I let it go, I’m fine, and I let myself just laugh. And I just keep laughing. It feels so good.