I know that to some, this might sound lazy or like procrastination, but it’s more like a form of paralysis. My mind won’t let me commit to anything because there’s this nagging, insistent voice reminding me that I’m just killing time until the “main event” arrives.

Waiting mode is a dead zone where productivity goes to die.

My body is primed, itching to act, to do something . But there’s nowhere to aim that energy. It’s like sitting on the edge of an emotional cliff, watching the clock slog forward at a glacial pace, yet feeling trapped, unable to escape the feeling of impending... something.

For many AuDHD individuals, waiting mode is more than mere frustration; it’s... See more