No one was telling me the cards sucked, which to a depressed person means that the cards do suck but everyone’s either too polite or angry to actually tell you that.

Depression can’t be cured by positive life circumstances because depression is not a reaction to circumstances.

I’ve managed to stop getting worse. I want to be better.”

I had spent years exhorting people to get help and to believe that they could get better while never believing that about myself.

Three. Jumping would mean doing something. Doing something was not really my thing. I was more inclined to not do something. I specialized in stewing.

In rage and fear, I would then turn on Don, the kid who never talked to anyone and was always dirty, who wore the same clothes every day, and cruelly mock him, thinking I could transfer this awful feeling down the line. I am sorry, Don.

I didn’t know that depression isn’t a mood. It’s a set of conditions that cause a whole series of thoughts and behaviors to happen over a long period of time, often things that are wildly different from one another.

Boy, I spin thoughts around in my head a lot, don’t I? Like, a lot. That’s what depression does. The dance floor of your mind is never without a pounding beat, and usually the DJ is playing eight or nine songs at the same time.

How arrogant of me to think that they don’t know what they’re talking about?”