Sometimes he did not return my calls and other times he called constantly. And those mixed messages played havoc with my instincts.

The I Ching actually changed my understanding of time. I used it for years after that.

Inspiration is always a response to what’s missing. The creative process is about filling the gap. That’s why, for example, Picasso never painted another guitar after he bought one for himself.

Writing a memoir is a lot like spelunking. Headlamp on, I felt as if I were dropping down into deeper and darker caverns, negotiating vast and tight spaces to discover the great and terrible beauty that had been sustained in the cool dark places under the surface.

Highs and lows are what it takes to break the mold of previous consciousness and allow world-shattering ideas to be birthed. Not only did Steve have a big hole in him from the adoption, he had an enormous id that fed on nearly everything to fill it up. Looking for the love he missed, he made sure all eyes were on him so he could get what he needed.

without permission, risking God-knows-what if we were caught. The nights were cold. I was awed by the stars, and I loved that we were out there on our own, making something happen. Our tiny sounds were lost in the expanse of the cavernous, cinder block campus,

The computer flattens the emotional and spiritual dimensions of our lives, as it coaxes us away from real-time, face-to-face relationships with people and the natural world. I fear that one day we will finally have the science to show that generations of children have been harmed from using computers way too early and way too much.

Karmapa lit a fire in me that can hardly be overstated. The name that he gave me was a very powerful riddle that would

instead was that he rather enjoyed that I wasn’t getting it. I hated his big fat Houdini act. Until this time Steve had wanted to include me in every adventure but no more. The