What I understand now is that I could never escape from my love for S, nor would I want to. To be loved by him, to love and care for him, is neither my birthright or destiny. It’s the groove worn into the earth by repetitive pacing over thousands of days. It’s the room I’m locked in that I can never get out of. It’s the room that I would return to ... See more

When you love someone, I think the question that you ask is: can I help them be okay? Can I make their life better without ruining my own? What can I do to be there? To me, the heart of love is the acknowledgement that we have little control over how other people live and yet our fate is bound up with theirs. S is not the only person I feel that wa... See more