Interview with a 52-Year-Old Sober Person: Ana Marie Cox
I am convinced that some people are driven to addictions to quiet their constant inner critic, but it only gives them another thing to hate about themselves. What a vicious cycle! Moral scrutiny is not to discover how good or bad we are and regain some moral high ground, but to begin some honest “shadowboxing” which is at the heart of all spiritual... See more
What is high me avoiding? Or the part of me who wants to avoid?
Or is this a version of the mind I’m trying to enter? Hm i dunno - i dont think i need a substance to get closer to my truer self - maybe its fake NS regulation - it feels calming but its still avoiding?
I like this mind - but this desire in me to avoid and get high. Who is that? What
... See moreI don’t how shame came to be part of the equation of who I am—but it ran pretty deep. I think that sense of inner shame is pretty common among us alcoholics and addicts; it’s true that drinking and using let us escape other people and external obligations—but it was mostly me that I was running from.