if no one sees you try, no one sees you fail. and if no one sees you fail, you can keep pretending that you could have done it, if only you had chosen to. sabotage is easier than disappointment.
i once read my own avoidance as lack of effort; now it feels more like an overprotective part of me stepping in at the wrong time. the closer you get to the life you want, the more you have to lose. the moment you care, the fear grows teeth.
magic lives in the unknowable! Synchronicity happens beyond the border of the comfortable! When you’re performing a human life instead of living one, you miss the glimmers of opportunity that are right there in your peripheral vision!
most of us build our lives around other people’s expectations before we ever learn what our own voice sounds like. and sometimes following “good” advice still takes you somewhere wrong if the person giving it is nothing like you.