i went to rehab and all i got was 70k scrawled words
Addiction is in all of us. This argument has come to matter a great deal to me. The reason I care about it is that when I truly felt this notion in my bones, reading accounts of addiction and recovery from across history, it was profoundly reassuring and comforting. As I write at more length in the book, I developed a sense of fellowship with all t... See more
Toward a Unified Field Theory of Human Flourishing
nico kokonas and added
A few more years and my mind wasn’t suited for much else. I was anorexic and had no friends; I was absolutely killing it online. I had developed all these health issues and begun posting hospital selfies, crying selfies, depressive bathtub selfies. I was sick and sad. I’m fangirling, a girl said when she recognized me on the subway. I’m spiraling, ... See more
August Lamm • My Year of Tech and Relaxation by August Lamm
When I got sober, I quit bingeing and purging, but I never really learned to feed myself. A lifetime of bingeing was enough to prove to me that my appetite was animalistic and shameful. It was not to be trusted, so I locked it away. I treated my hunger like a prisoner. I doled out daily rations of food-like products—tiny portions of bars, shakes, j
... See moreGlennon Doyle • Love Warrior (Oprah's Book Club): A Memoir
I knew AA worked miracles. What nobody ever tells you is that miracles can be very, very uncomfortable.
Sarah Hepola • Blackout: Remembering the Things I Drank to Forget
Shouldn’t I have been cured? I could’ve let the shame set in, felt like a failure, and given up on the shopping ban altogether. But slipping up didn’t make me a bad person. I was not bad. What I did wasn’t bad. I had just slipped up. And I knew I didn’t want to relapse and repeat the cycle of self-loathing. It always led to trouble. The only way to
... See moreCait Flanders • The Year of Less: How I Stopped Shopping, Gave Away My Belongings, and Discovered Life is Worth More Than Anything You Can Buy in a Store
Norah on Substack
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I wanted to not drink, but I was wracked with nerves and just needed to pass out. Ugh, it is SO FUCKING BORING to talk about this shit. Maybe people wouldn’t get so addicted to things if they knew how fucking tedious it was. Did D.A.R.E. cover this? A substance problem is the opposite of crazy drama and destruction. It’s like being a hamster on a w
... See moreRyan O'Connell • Just by Looking at Him: A Novel
Twice-weekly therapy; heavy doses of intense medications in a complex cocktail; endless immersions in meaning systems of various kinds; new exercise and diet regimens; new careers, new cities, new people... and I’m instantly recognizable, by speech alone, to an elementary school teacher I had for one year.