SEARCH ME.

BREAK ME.

SEND ME.

When we're seeking to communicate with God in real, vulnerable, and intimate prayer, he's not wrapping us in a bubble of spiritual safety. Instead he bursts our what's-in-itfor-me bubble and invites us to trust him when we don't know what he will do next. Some days we feel blessed. Other days we face challenges,

With all his heart, David wanted to please God. He fought against his anger in order to protect and show honor to the king. Yet knowing that his motives weren't always perfect, David surrendered his heart before God and prayed one of the most vulnerable, transparent, and dangerous prayers you'll ever hear. Wanting to honor God in every aspect of

Gary reminded me that God loved me. He always has my best interests in mind. But for me to be wholly useful to him, I'd have to be empty of myself. God would have to break me of pride, of self-confidence, of self sufficiency. And God would also have to break me of things that didn't even know needed to be removed from my life.

If I wanted to be used

Jesus didn't just challenge others to leave their own wills behind. He too lived a dangerous faith. He touched lepers. Showed grace to prostitutes. And stood bravely in the face of danger. Then he told us we could do what he did-and more.

And that's why we can't settle for simply asking God to bless our food or "be with us today."

True brokenness before God isn't a one-time event; it's a daily decision. Paul said, "I die daily" (1 Cor. 15:31 NKJV). What does that True brokenness before mean? Every day, he chose to crucify his own desires so he could live fully for God's.

We are each called to die daily. To be broken and poured out. To become dependent on God's Spirit. To rely

As I reflect on my spiritual journey through this prayer, let Go me recap what God has been showing me.

1. Search my heart, God. God showed me my hypocrisy. I oth often show people the me I want them to see. My words honor God, but my heart can be far from him.




2. Know my anxious thoughts. I'm scared to death of WC not measuring up. I'm haunted by my

Feel the power of his presence. If his Spirit dwells within you, you can say with confidence: He is my Rock (Ps. 42:9). He is my Savior (Ps. 18:46). He is my stronghold (Ps. 144:2). My God is the one who blots out our sins (Isa. 43:25), and he is my God who comforts me when I hurt (Isa. 66:13). The King of the universe is my advocate (Job 16:19).

Which brings me back to why I wanted to write this book.

With all my heart, I know the power of praying dangerous prayers. And I'm continually sick of my safe prayers. I can't stand another day of my self-centered Christianity. So this message burns within me. But I'm worried that I won't be able to get the idea from my heart onto the page. What if

Meditate on his character. Consider that God is the Creator of heaven and earth (Gen. 14:19). Seripture calls him God of glory (Ps, 29:3), the greatIAM (Ex. 3:14), and righteous Father (John 17:25). God is our fortress of salvation (Ps. 28:8) and the eternal King (Jer. 10:10). He is the God of all comfort (2 Cor. 13), the God of all grace (1 Peter