That’s because we’re recommending that you attend AA. I look at Joanne. I thought we were through with this bullshit.

doors are always open here, so if you want to leave, you can. Substance use is not allowed and if you’re caught using or possessing, you will be sent Home.

fifteen I was drinking every day, at eighteen

There is no Meeting where any amount of whining, complaining and blaming is going to make me feel any better.

John talks about himself. He’s

everything I have done. It’s gone. All of it. It’s fucking gone.

I hear harmony and simplicity and patience, I hear discipline and compassion. I hear it all now. In this moment in this Clinic in this Room in this bed with my eyes closed. I hear it. Right now.

I think about whether I am leaving anything out is there anything I have forgotten is there anything I’m scared to face or acknowledge, is there anything I am scared to admit. I want to come to terms with my past and leave it behind me is there anything I have forgotten left out is there anything that scares me.

I have missed it my little Chinese book.