Hers is a heaviness that soothes.

If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you don’t bring forth what is within you, what you don’t bring forth will destroy you.”—Gospel of Thomas.)

Just don’t push it back down. Of course it hurts when it comes up. It was stored with pain; it’s going to release with pain. You have to decide if you want to continue to walk around with stored pain blocking your heart and limiting your life. The alternative is to be willing to let it go when it gets stimulated. It only hurts for a minute and then

When feelings aren’t released or allowed to move through us in the form of creativity or emotional expression, they stay stuck to us and in us, weighing us down, stifling our energy, and preventing us from living as our biggest selves.