I’ve spent the last three years pregnant, breastfeeding, or trying to conceive. I want more children, and I want close age gaps, and I want to write a book, and go to more parties, and keep publishing this newsletter. I still feel creative impulses, but they don’t always translate neatly to tangible output anymore. In fact, I would say they rarely... See more

For a while, during that disillusioned spring, I declared myself done with writing. Photography became — and still is, more and more so — a way for me to create with spontaneity and play. I haven’t been a photographer all my life, nor have I been especially interested in photography. I only began shooting film during the pandemic, when documenting... See more

That even though I strive to create and be creative, I have to balance this with decades of capitalist conditioning. I have to be cognizant of my motivation when I’m working in and on my business. Am I desperately grabbing at financial opportunities because I’m worried I won’t get my piece of the pie, that someone else will snag it and I’ll miss

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